Sometimes people really hurt my feelings and perhaps don't intend to... or perhaps that is exactly what they want to do. It's hard to tell sometimes. 

I realize that I am at a low point in my life and probably take things harder than I should. But I am still in constant pain from the treatment I went through. 

When I take pain meds I can't really go anywhere. So do I stay at home and not hurt or go out and be in pain? That seems to be my choice. 

And when someone invites me to do something I can not do or invites me to eat things I can not eat... it hurts my feelings. Plus it reminds me of all of the stuff I am missing out on because I went through that awful treatment to live. 

Is this living?